Dilemma of a Funny Guy
Some people just don’t see how you see yourself!
I am a funny guy. You mostly see me having fun with my peers. You would hear me laugh if you’re within 50 feet from where I am. I love to play around, tease and poke friends. I usually give funny comments and double meanings which are mostly green. I’m loud and proud.
You might ask so what is the problem with that? In the past, I usually joke too much that I got some friends offended. But nowadays that would not be a problem because I can control it. What got my attention lately is a comment from a friend after she saw and heard me speech wittily in front of my bosses and my fellow participants of a prestigious office training which I topped. She said that she is not proud of me being his friend before but her impression of me changed after the speech. I don’t know what to say! I was insulted!
You don’t have to dig deeper to understand what she means. It’s a straight in the face jab! I began to think what impression I made to people. It is not because you see me crack jokes everywhere means I am loser. You want to hear another lousy comment? Here’s another one given to me just two days ago. I was telling two co-workers about things I learned in the previous seminar in speed reading. Then one of them said, “finally you said something that made sense!” WTF! I just smiled.
Initially I was asking what are this people thinking but the most profound question I asked myself is “What am I projecting to them?”. Image is important to me but fun living is also my way of life. At first glance, you might not see me as I guy that don’t take life seriously but the truth is I do, but not in a serious way. I remember a friend of mine telling me when I passed the board exam that she didn’t see me as a man who can accomplish such things because in school it seems I’m just a boy who love to laugh.
I was disappointed with the impression I left to people but it opened my eyes. There might be other factors but one thing is very apparent. For them I am just a funny guy! May be it’s time to grow up or change image or ways of talking. But let me say this, I was able to accomplish a lot in my life being who I am and there is now way I would completely change it. Borrowing a line from one of my favorites songs of Beatles titled “Across the Universe”, I would like to end this by saying “Nothing’s gonna change my world”.